anoushka, 15, london, ednos, depression.
I feel like a huge fake. I don’t even look anorexic. Do you know how embarrassing that is? To be suffering so much and nobody can even see it just by looking at you. And when people do find out, they are secretly shocked because, really, I don’t look anorexic. I know I’m always saying how Anorexia is a mental illness but there’s nothing worse than being diagnosed with it, and not looking like I should.
(via esurient)
When “purging” was unknown vocabulary, starving a horrible thing only kids in poor countries experience, vomiting a highly avoidable thing. When you only sometimes got hurt by others, instead of hurting yourself. When lying was a rare thing, doing it made you feel guilty so you…
can’t remember at all, and it’s so, so frightening.
I am like the fattest girl ever. I need to lose so much weight and I just don’t know how to anymore.
